In April of 2017 I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
And, over these past 20 months, the Lord has performed a miracle in my life. No, the cancer has not gone away — my most recent chemo infusion was yesterday.
The miracle is that, all this time, the Lord has kept me in a state of peace and thankfulness. I consider this a miracle because I’m not usually a calm person, especially when it comes to health issues involving me or my family. Nausea, from a child, has been my worse fear.
But, once in a great while, like the two days this week before chemo, I went into a dark place. Couldn’t pray, bitterness creeping in, depressed. I was sure no one loved me or cared. Such lies passed through my brain!
Then on Wednesday, as Harvey was driving me to the infusion center, a Bible verse just popped into my mind.
Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7b
That’s exactly what I was NOT doing those past two days — resisting the devil. Instead, I was listening to him.
And at the same time that Bible verse popped in, the Lord made me able to hear it and obey. Prayer flowed and the depression and bitterness dissolved.
Thank you Lord.
But why did this even have to happen? I can tell you why. The Lord used this little episode to draw me closer to Him, and to give me an experience to remember if/when a similar thing happens in the future. I will remember “Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”
Here are some messages from John MacArthur which have helped me.
So in the meantime, we go on living. If the Lord puts in you a mind to pray for me, here is what I need: that I would continue to have confidence in a sovereign God and to abide in Christ, doing all things pleasing to Him, even to the end.